I am having some struggles some days and this weekend is no better unfortunately. I am still detached as much as I can be, still doing my own thing, still not putting any pressure on. But I see so, so much of my old H these days and he is doing so well with the kids, around so much, etc. that it is hard not to feel the pain of rejection all over again, something I had worked a lot through.
He still isn't making a whole lot of steps towards me it seems. He does seem pretty relaxed around me for the most part now, which is an improvement. I don't seem to have cooties anymore (i.e. he doesn't pull back if we accidentally brush by or something). We have had some conversations lately that lasted more than a couple of minutes and were about something other than a TV show or the kids.
I try to focus on each day and me and the kids still but I admit it is very hard. I have a lot to be thankful for, though.
