Of course I had a dream about this last night! I dreamt that I saw him face-to-face in his apartment. People were in and out and he was getting texts about doing stuff through the whole convo. It started out nice, but when I got to the point about him seeing the baby and he started waffling, I got upset. I just really gave it to him- how awful, cowardly, etc he was. Then I looked out the window, saw some people, and started shouting out to them what he was doing. Then he went to another window and jumped to the ground. I got down there and suddenly tried to be helpful. I was saying, "It's okay, love, we'll figure this out," but then his eyes rolled back.
So it was not a pleasant dream.
(Also the way he looked was not the way he looks now. I swear I don't know who that guy is that I saw in yesterday's pictures. In the dream he looked like I remember him from a few years ago.)
It's just frustrating, I think. To have someone doing something so awful and not being able to do much at all. . .
But maybe when he speaks/writes to me directly he will be open to meeting her. I'm only hearing through others that he isn't. And it may be more significant to tell me.
So I'm going to wait until Tuesday and then I'm going to send the email I have drafted with some revisions. And we'll see what happens.
