he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

saw h yesterday....i knew he was too shy to tell me the dream in person...he came into my house and is all friendly and hangingaround....we texted after, the most i got is it was some kind of sexual dream...i said to him, i know u so well, u would never talk about stuff like that with me...then i said, why tell me? u made your choice, u are just about rid of me and should be happy, ive finally moved on and u keep popping back up, what do you want from me? so a few texts back and forth later and i seem to be starting an affair with my husband.

we are bizarre...by day we battle the bitterest, ugliest emotionally charged divorce case... and by night, we are trying to sleep together. so weird.

i cant explain it. i know im pretty much over him, love my boyfriend and would choose him in a second over h....but i guess because right now things with boyfriend are kinda on hold, im entertaining h. not good but i think alot of people going thru divorce must experience this at some point.