Start of the end..

[iwantittowork]

Hey all,

Thanks for checking in with me, it's been a while, but I took a break from the boards as I was in Australia for 3 weeks for work. I need to catch up with everyone's sitch here and I hope you all are doing well.

Couple days especially this week where I wound up dreaming about STBXW again, and getting back together with her. That is extremely annoying, but I understand where it comes from..

I had hoped I would clear my head a bit, but that didn't really happen, more like I suspended 3 weeks of my life and now back at it.

At any rate, this Friday is pre-trial, so I need to get financials back together this week and meet with L. Nothing I can do but prepare, and I am trying to control the anxiety around that.

I also have a crazy week at work, just going to be a week of he** that I need to push through and get past.

I really pushed off that response from my last post. I realized I was scared of ticking off STBXW, and her just pushing harder during D, so I thought back to what I want and just this AM replied with answer #1. We'll see how that goes over, but I am not going to wonder what or how she will reply, I replied with that, because it is what is best for me, and what I believe is correct.

Hope to catch up with you all as I can, as I bet I'll need some support this week as I plow through it..