I just can't take it anymore

[james217]

I really don't understand how you feel you have had very little emotional support. You (IMO) have had lots of support on this board. Didn't Serenity stay up the ENTIRE night with you? Hell, even a DB Coach chimed in which is rare.

Instead of stopping for a few minutes to be thankful for the support you *do* have you focus on the support you *don't* have.

Nobody is saying that sniffing the fresh air and eating breakfast will take all your problems away. What we are suggesting is to take a few minutes each day to think (express, write...whatever!) about what you do have to be grateful for. Even if what you feel you have is only basic.

You are not the only one with health problems, difficult family dynamics, financial issues or a cheating spouse. This board is FILLED with inspiration each day.

this board yes. IRL? no.

Oh I read the threads. After awhile you just don't want to read your own thread or other threads on here.

To be honest there's not anything I am grateful for. I'd rather not exist or be here.

IM TIRED WORN DOWN. and exhausted in every way possible. I dont see the point in me going through all of this. Just went through it. Had faith go through it again. Have faith for what? To get kicked again?

Soon as some progress begins something stupid happens or the state screws me over. Or it's something else. I honestly believe I'm cursed.

Even when things are set up to go a certain way and i've done everything that has been asked something stupid happens.

So like I said i'm sorry if appreciating clouds or snifffing the grass doesn't make me all sentimental and want to sing blessings and praises.

Like I said been there done that only to get smacked upside the head have people toy with my life like it's a joke refuse to keep their word or even do their damn jobs so I can get healthy.

but like I said I have pretty much no belief or faith because I feel like I'm being toyed with. I told serenity I'll probably never pick up a bible again.

It seems like it's a joke. I can't catch a break. I've tried very very very hard and this just isn't working. I've set goals and tried to achieve them only to have people just screw around.

So what's the point?