Forward, yes I am very comfortable at this point, in fact something snapped inside me a few weeks ago and I decided that life is in fact too short to be wasting any more time on the ifs and whys and what might be's. my life is for living and living I will do. maybe it is this approach and attitude that has scared ex off again, maybe he realises he didnt destroy me and quite possibly he cannot understand how happy and calm I am right now after all he put us through, but hey thats his problem not mine, today folks another bbq with son and his mate, oh i love all this lovely weather and chilling out, the housework and garden etc can wait, lol have fun peeps xxx