Healing my Heart part 8

[fightingirish]

well he hasn't called or text me since this stupid fight happend... I guess he thinks hes punishing me. My emotions are reeling right now.

I was looking back at the boys pictures and suddenly got really sad and afraid...that one day my kids will be gone and it will just be him and I... and I just don't know, I just want to be in a marriage where there is respect and kindness. and not just hoping for it once in awhile. I could never be as cruel as he is, nor as much as he upsets me, I still couldn't do or say the things he does.

I feel like I am so alone here. Unable to share any of this with anyone except on here, and I can feel myself getting depressed, more and more every time this happens.

Tomorrow the boys have baseball and then Im supposed to stop by my sisters shes having a yard sale. I don't where he is or when he is coming home, should have been home hours ago.. but I guess he needs to punish me a little more as sick as that sounds.

I can't break this terrible Cough I have, Im sure the stress is not helping. Say a prayer for me please, I need it tonight.