I just can't take it anymore

[james217]

i think i'm manic depressive. I think I just hide it very well. All the signs are there. When I look at WAW and myself it's like looking at a female version of me. I have too many highs and lows. I have attempted suicide 3 different times in my life and have been in 2 or 3 mental facilities because of it. Not long visits but still. I think I've been in denial about this for a long long time. I think some of my uncles have this.

I used to be on celexa and trazadone. I stopped going to counseling and therapy years ago though.

This is not good. No wonder whenever me and waw have so many highs and lows.

Hi James,

Just read this. I would not jump to conclussions on your own diagnosis. I know when I was in your sitch (OK, not exacxtly your sitch); my emotions were all over the place. In fact, I would say that you are NOT normal if you don't go through a plethora of emotions during this time.

Yes, it sounds like your W may be BP. And it may be due to the drugs. I am positive the ADs my W took changed her. Has your W seen a psychiatrist after starting her medications? There are mood stabilizers that can help with the mania. Of course, I am sure you probably know that already.

Now back to be married to someone with BP tendencies. It can make you feel BP as well. It is easy for me to get swept up in my W's impulsive and wild ideas; in fact some of those memories are the best I have being with her. And I am often very sad when she falls in to her depressive states. This does not make me BP; just empathetic. Anyway, see a professional and find out what he/she thinks. And get treatment if your are; it will help.

Take care of yourself,
-T

The thing is I feel like a total tool because all the signs were there. I thought if she switched her meds then she wouldn't act bipolar.

It still could be but it seems as though she's hypomanic because of what meds she was given while she was in the mental facility.

So the thing is even if she's on the antidepressants it still won't keep her balanced because she needs another med to keep her from going into a total state of euphoria over promiscuity and other stuff that she was not doing.

The thing is she's not speaking to me at all. So there's nothing I can do to encourage her to go see a psychiatrist.

I often wonder about myself though. It would explain alot of things about me. My behavior has been very very erratic for awhile myself.

I'm going ot have to get all of this stuff checked out

thank you for your reply tristan. it really gives me some insight and clarity as well