Tal, You caught yourself, that's what's important. You stopped cold. Was there a time that you would have started and not known or been able to stop yourself? Geez, it's especially hard with PMS. We're like Cats on a hot tin roof. All jumpy like. When you were comparing last yr. to this year, it brings those gut wrenching memories to mind and ya know it sure would be nice if we wouldn't have ever had to live those memories, but look what you've got to compare them to now! I will have to say that I think the LBS that stick this crap out are the strongest people in the world because nothing hurts worse than a broken heart. Some things are worse than death, and I have to say I think a totally broken heart is one of them. Hey! I'm suppose to be reporting that I went to H's tonight wondering if he was gonna give me the boot, but I went and "aacted as if" my little heart out, and well um, let's just say things went very well. He's still somewhat distant. He's not going to change overnight, but I did. WHOA!! You guys helped pull me out of the pits of despair and anxiety. Jeannine wrote so eloquently her 180's which helped save her R. ((((((THANKS JEANNINE)))))))) If I turn into a nutbar again, please remind me of those. Tal, it's a bump. A mere bump. If anyone knows how to handle herself when those feelings surface it's you, you, you! Rachael
