How do you put aside all the feelings of anger, hurt, sadness to motivate positive change in your life. I did'nt exercise at all this week because I feel so bad about my separation. All i want to do is sleep and I cant even sleep because my brain is bombarded with negative thoughts about him, what i did wrong, what i should have done different, arguments replay in my head over and over and they won't leave. It's like as soon as I lay down to go to sleep my thoughts turn on full speed.
I am dreaming while awake my past life. I feel fat and ugly...although i know I am not those things, i now feel those things, i think if i was prettier my husband would want to stay with me. If i was richer. I went to my daughters open house and I saw parents happily together. I was so jealous, I was watching the wives to try and see what they were doing right.
I feel like a failure, I wish I didnt have to deal with anything...the only thing keeping me half way sane is my daughter. But then my husband comes home and I am reminded of our lost love.
Me30 H38 D6 Married for 7 years Relationship before marriage 3 years Husband is sending me on the biggest rollercoaster in the world.