I just can't take it anymore

[CityGirl]

Are you still providing your W with an allowance?

[james217]

Are you still providing your W with an allowance?

we are not talking period. no contact. no allowance. nothing since about 2 weeks ago.

she hasn't talked to the mutual friend either. Who I found out is also manic depressive and bipolar. never knew that.

she hasnt used her phone except to check her voicemail once a day. she probably has another phone.

I think she's withdrawing from everyone though. Since I told the truth. Who knows.

She will probably never speak to me again though. She already had stopped talking before then.

last day i heard from her was when I overdosed on pills. not a single call, text, email or anything.

I left a few voicemails that she's listened to. but she hasn't said a word.

she listened to s3's voicemail too.

mutual friend seems to understand my side of things. especially realizing that I have alot of hypomanic depressive symptoms

[knightinneed]

James man, I have this feeling once you get your issues worked out your probably not going to want her back. Its good to see you on here posting actually, was wondering about you.

Well, my W and I had court today, and they want to do a slow transition to get DD 1 with my sister. A few overnight stays, and then 1 month from now custody until W and I get our counseling and parenting classes done.

W is so damn evil, she was praying with some guy I have never seen in the middle of the courtroom lobby. As she left they were holding hands. She has CPS totally not liking her, and well I think court is pushing us towards D - Her Lawyer mentioned it again today.

Well anyway the Prosecutor, My Lawyer, CPS all agreed to get DD 1 out of foster care.

I am afraid I may have no choice but for divorce as the court is pushing us in this direction.

Well sorry to hi-jack just giving u a update on my sitch.

[james217]

your sitch is going as good as it possibly can right now man. Sorry about potential O.M.

trust me it could be alot worse.

2 weeks N.C. with waw

[CityGirl]

James, what exactly are your expectations with your W? And at this point why do you have any at all?

I understand you are waiting around for medical appts. but what else are you doing to help move your life forward right now.

I just get the feeling that you are using NC as some sort of countdown and that will only lead to frustration.

[tristan]

i think i'm manic depressive. I think I just hide it very well. All the signs are there. When I look at WAW and myself it's like looking at a female version of me. I have too many highs and lows. I have attempted suicide 3 different times in my life and have been in 2 or 3 mental facilities because of it. Not long visits but still. I think I've been in denial about this for a long long time. I think some of my uncles have this.

I used to be on celexa and trazadone. I stopped going to counseling and therapy years ago though.

This is not good. No wonder whenever me and waw have so many highs and lows.

Hi James,

Just read this. I would not jump to conclussions on your own diagnosis. I know when I was in your sitch (OK, not exacxtly your sitch); my emotions were all over the place. In fact, I would say that you are NOT normal if you don't go through a plethora of emotions during this time.

Yes, it sounds like your W may be BP. And it may be due to the drugs. I am positive the ADs my W took changed her. Has your W seen a psychiatrist after starting her medications? There are mood stabilizers that can help with the mania. Of course, I am sure you probably know that already.

Now back to be married to someone with BP tendencies. It can make you feel BP as well. It is easy for me to get swept up in my W's impulsive and wild ideas; in fact some of those memories are the best I have being with her. And I am often very sad when she falls in to her depressive states. This does not make me BP; just empathetic. Anyway, see a professional and find out what he/she thinks. And get treatment if your are; it will help.

Take care of yourself,
-T

[james217]

James, what exactly are your expectations with your W? And at this point why do you have any at all?

I understand you are waiting around for medical appts. but what else are you doing to help move your life forward right now.

I just get the feeling that you are using NC as some sort of countdown and that will only lead to frustration.

Just exercising, trying to pray and stay busy. She is the one N.C. probably won't ever talk to me again. Who knows.

Yes I"m frustrated. I'm ticked off irritated and upset.

I don't have any expectations. I don't know what I expect heck I don't know maam. In a pretty bad state right now

[CityGirl]

Did you ever check out the diabetes clinic one poster mentioned that works on a sliding scale fee? Did you get the at home glucose kit?

I know you are limited as you are at the mercy of the state for your appts. but there must be something you can do. Be proactive!

What is keeping you busy?

[james217]

Did you ever check out the diabetes clinic one poster mentioned that works on a sliding scale fee? Did you get the at home glucose kit?

I know you are limited as you are at the mercy of the state for your appts. but there must be something you can do. Be proactive!

What is keeping you busy?

my dad is taking me to some clinic next week.

The thing that frustrates me is having the freaking kit but still no meds. So at least I"ll know when i'm about to pass out right? LOL

Sleep keeps me busy. Reading. Exercise.

C.G. I think she's mad at me forever. Probably will never ever talk to me again.

Maybe I should just give up on even hoping at all.

[konfuseeed]

I don't mean to be a dick, cause I love ya, but you GOTTA try as hard as you can, and I mean REALLY, REALLY REALLY not worry about your wife right now.

For right now, you just have to let go.

For a month.

Give it that.

For one freakin' month, just worry about yourself.

A month isnt even that long of a time, you know?

One month of just you, just james. We'll even name it.

Jamestober.

The next 30 days is Jamestober.