I feel so sad lonely and desperate it's embarrassing. I actually crawled into bed with him while he was sleeping. I just wanted to cuddle, and not feel so scared and alone.
SA, although it's hard, it's critical for you not to confuse your feelings of being sad, lonely and desparate for feelings about him. Based on what you wrote in your first post and the ones that followed it, you were not thriving in this relationship. You felt sexually rejected from the outset and that had only increased over time. Worse, the prospects of it getting any better seemed dim.
It is incredibly hard to be rejected and left by someone. My wife has told me more than once that it would be eaiser for her to deal with my death than with my divorcng her. The former would make her incredibly sad, but it would not cause her to rethink the quality of our marriage, her own attractiveness and desirability, and so on. Rejection is really, really hard. It's no wonder you are desperate for him to "unreject" you. Try to remind yourself if you can that just a little while ago you were far from sure that he was the right guy for you.
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I have gotten through breakups before in previous relationships, when you don't live together, you don't know where they are or what they're doing. You just face the fact you can't see him, cry about it and move on.
My experience has been that the amount of time it takes to get over someone who rejcets you is equal to the amount of time you were together. (Unless you meet someone new, in which case you often get over them almost instantly.) I don't think there is any way for you escape the grieving process, but you *can* escape the feeling of wanting to be with him so much by moving on (and away) from him. I would try to expedite that process at all costs.
