I needed you girls!!! Not fun with the laptop not working... cant get on here except at work!
you are right! I now have to act like the WAS. I have to show him, that I can distance myself and go on my own... as i've been doing. Everytime I back off, H comes forward, and I get sucked in!
Honestly I do not mind him at the classes or the doc appts. For some reason, i can easily distance myself on these occasions... guess because my mind is distracted and its all about the baby.
I had a rough week... feeling much better. Reminding myself as you mentioned before NM, that DBing is months not days and weeks.
I am living a cycle that has been going on since the arrival of the D papers. I back off. H takes two steps forward, and one step back... then four steps forward and two steps back... with each interaction we get a teeny tiny bit closer, after he backs out again.
Piano, he calls me and initiates the calls most of the time... lately. I am learning not to answer or reply and be mysterious...
Frankly, not sure what he wants from me? Could he be trialing out how to be in a my life even as a friend? Is he using me to get to the baby? Is he just cake eating?
So I am back to getting a life. I need to really pay attention to myself!
H needs to miss me. For me... as his wife!
He just sends so many mixed signals... he went from saying absolutely NOT to not now or maybe down the line... have to remind myself not to listen or believe what he says!
