Journaling: I've been back and forth on a few things lately. I see that now. Reading other people's things helps. I realize it's over and I'm moving past her. I realize that she was hurt the other day when I called her by her given name instead of the pet name I always had. I didn't do it for that reason, but I did realize it would send a clear signal. I'm not insensitive. I'm still working through anger though. I know that. I can see it as if from a distance. I am starting to forget incidents that occurred. Details of them actually. I realized that the other day. I'm no longer bothered by things she does, but I do notice. I do still talk about her too much to friends, but there is much more "I" statements and I'm starting to actually have times with friends where we talk about other things and I like that. The anger is no longer all the time either. I like that too. The sadness only comes and goes as well. Seems to be going further away. I'm sure it'll all come back a final time at least, but I'm finally getting away from the pain and i like that.
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
The anger is no longer all the time either. I like that too. The sadness only comes and goes as well. Seems to be going further away. I'm sure it'll all come back a final time at least, but I'm finally getting away from the pain and i like that. 