Positive Lifetime Attitude Award Goes to...

[newmama]

So, I'm just going on with my life like nothing is amiss.
-God is a big part of it now, I pray a lot and he answers my prayers in ways that I am surprised at entirely. I KNOW he's working on H's heart, but I don't see the fruits of that yet.

Have you heard or felt God speaking to you about what you can change? About 3 weeks before WH told me (the most recent time) that he wants to move forward with D, my body and intuition was nagging me to change the arrangement of visitation we had going and to go dim. I couldn't eat(NOT LIKE ME!) I couldn't sleep, the next day didn't bring me comfort (like in the past). I tried to ignore it and justify it and said it was just me being impatient, scared and wanting to give up...but I really think it was God telling me it was time I did it. Well, I just was waiting for the right opportunity I guess, so when WH said he wanted to D, I implemented the changes then.

The reason why I tell you this is that my grandma reminded me that we can pray and ask for answers, but sometimes we get an answer and don't want to accept it. In my case, I wanted to explain away my feelings for wanting to go dim and not see that it was God telling me to do it! I said that it was reaction based on the last discussion WH brought up about D!

I really am not trying to talk you into changing something- your vision of the paths to the mountain is super clear and impressive! I am just sharing that we all do things in our own time, and that if we pray (or meditate), the answer will come to us if we can "hear it." And in my case, for many many months (12 to be exact), the answer was not clear...seriously. There wasn't an answer which to me, meant "wait. be patient. do not change anything."

Ok one more thing- I do think that there are events or timing that can help to launch a change...i.e. when you file for bankruptcy, perhaps that will start a chain of events that will cause you to change something. Perhaps not! But it would be a change in the status quo, right?


(NOT THAT YOU HAVE TO DO SOMETHING DIFFERENT YET!You will know when you are ready!)