This evening I was finishing up some gardening out front when X (and surgically attached dog) stopped by to sign renter's agreement which she couldn't wait around for Tuesday.

I reminded her that I'd said I'd confirm tonight with her - which I didn't - renter's not home tonight. He and I will sign and I'll mail it to her, I decided. "Okay."

She asked if she could go out back and cut flowers. "Go right ahead."
I finished up, went in house through the front, took a shower, didn't see her again. Was going to use the word "ignore" in this post, but "ignore" denotes intent, a decision. For me, now, whenever I see her it's simply a sense of, "Yeah...so?"

Later, while driving, I thought that one week ago today was the one year "anniversary" of when she asked for D. The fact that that date and event didn't register for over a week, must say something about where I'm at now.

Off tomorrow morning for a "guys" weekend that I organized with eight of my ol' high school crowd. A couple I still see often. The other six? It's been between 5 and 25 years!

See ya Sunday.

Last edited by Gardener; 05/21/10 04:05 AM.
Gardener

"My soul, be satisfied with flowers,
With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them
In the one garden you may call your own."
Cyrano deBergerac