reconciliation after divorce?

[any chance?]

Another conversation today. Seems as if we cannot go a day without one. Note she is starting them all, and I am being honest and up front in response.

Started out talking about jointly vs. singly filing for D, how she needs to get the process started, needs to feel like she is moving on.

Quickly progressed into the pain she feels about my PA 5 years ago and my covering it up. I have explained and apologized for my unforgiveable mistake many times, and will continue to do so. She maintains she can never trust me again. She could never reenter the M because of the lack of trust. The M is dead (to which I agree), but I have a dimming glimmer of hope about a new M with our new perspectives. She ignores the EA/PA she engaged in at the end of last year. She is unfortunately questioning everything about our M, wondering if it was all a sham (which is most certainly was not).

Is it ever possible to reestablish trust?

Evergything is such a jumble. She had asked for a D before the revelations about the PA. She has had a OM for most of the past 8 months, not sure if that is faded. She wants to move on the D now. But she talks about why she can't reenter the M - why is she even thinking about it. She is severely depressed and on meds that definately affect her stability. I am about to leave for 3 weeks, and plan on NC. I wish I knew what the right thing to do here is. Thoughts would be appreciated.