Not much change in the last few days. Still back and forth. Sometimes really sweet and seems to really want my attention and affection, then bitter and negative about the future. I am trying not to respond and get roped into conversations that I know aren't going anywhere. Really trying to focus on my actions and attitude.
I am hopefully that consistancy will win outbut who knows? She really is dead set on moving out west and starting a new career. I knew for a while she was growing tired of the town we live in and wanted to move closer to the water (we both grew up by the beach and are now land locked) I wonder sometimes if she is trying to get a "do over" in life. New town, new job, new husband. I don't know and my problem is I can really think myself to death, if that makes any sense. I guess the good thing about living by your actions is that there is less to misconstrue, your acts are your acts and that's it.
I am working alot this week (60+ hours) and we haven't/won't see each other much. On the one hand that is probably good but on the other, even though our time together right now isn't great, I just want to be home and be with her. It's really taking alot out of me to act like I'm not absolutly destroyed inside.
Any encouragment or resources would be very appreciated.
