When you had that last convo with WH, who called who? Was it you, BD? Ok --- you must stop it! No more calls to your WH to 'tell him how it is'. He knows all this. And it's not changing him ONE bit when you remind him.
Sorry for the 2x4, but you know this comes from a friend!
Your H knows you want him back as a H, not as anything less. He knows you are a great person, but he's still left.
NM was right spot on about the grief cycle you've just gone through and are still going through.
It's best you keep this cycle to yourself, your close friends, your therapist, IF you still want to proeject the image of a strong woman who knows herself.
I have a feeling the only way your H is going to look at you in a new light is if you be the walk-away spouse.
At this point in time, you have no boundaries. He is walking all over you and has no reason to stop. He knows you to a fault and he kows he is going to get what he wants.
