New to this Community seeking advice

[JR09]

Journaling. I feel depressed and bummed today. 2 years of separation is a long time...I talked with my boys last night. S11 was quite sick. The best I could do was say a prayer with him over the phone. This is crushing me. I know many people are on this site going through the same thing. It still is tough.

Somehow these past 2 years have been a real growth experience. It's all mental. The physical separation is hard, but staying mentally balanced is even harder. Putting on a game face and going to work is not easy when I feel as if I've lost everything.

I didn't know I could last this long. One day at a time.

I have to keep reminding myself what progress I made since my W left. It's so easy to just dwell on the negative. The positives keep me going. Every baby step, every little victory, every day without crying is a positive. I have to keep going.

JR09