Originally Posted By: timehealsall
yeah, the bipolar disorder is another thing that I thought of as well.

Originally Posted By: timehealsall
Does anyone have any reading materials on depression? I want to read up on it. thanks.

I would like to caution you from falling into the belief / security of believing that "depression" or "mental illness" or a "mid-life crisis" is at the heart of your relationship problems. Your husband had an affair.

Your husband had an affair / is still having one in his mind.

The fact he was upset about the supposed email from the OW shows that he is still emotionally attached. If he wasnt, it would have put a sick feeling in his stomach to be reminded but otherwise ignored it. "Water off a duck's back" is a phrase they throw around here. It would not have phased him as you describe.

You can observe the same behaviors in yourself. You are still emotionally attached to your husband. If you weren't his outbursts and anger would mean nothing to you. "Water off a duck's back." "Get out of my face" is another very good phrase.

If you are to study anything right now, I would suggest you read up about addictions, over coming addictions, and families affected by addiction. With your access to the Internet and the whole Tiger Woods joke still lingering in the news, you should be able to find enough to read about affairs, affair withdrawal and resetting of the no-contact clock.