Actually I said all of this to myself on my drive home that day. I had convinced myself that I was only giving him his books, but I had to admit that I wanted to see him and I was hoping to be able to talk to him. No, it didn't turn out well, But, perhaps it was exactly what I needed.
Remember this and don't make the same mistake again. This is exactly what I was thinking.
What if you don't send him the electric bill? Can you set it up to automatically deduct from his account?