The same man who whined and threatened and begged and demanded a D has now decided that apparently I should pay the ultimate price for whatever sins I have committed against his crazy self.
He will not sign the papers, unless it is on his terms...
His terms means he is completely scot-free and goes about his merry little life with FT and we cut all ties completely...He pays not a dime, we split the kids and he gets the freedom he desires.
He won't listen to any other thing...His way or no way...
I will admit I did entertain that thought for a moment and just for a moment...To finally be done and have that final tie that binds us severed...
To bad the man didn't expect me to be as strong as I am...He still continues to tell me it shouldn't matter since he will be dead by the end of the year, however a friend has pointed out he is most likely using that as a way to play on my heart.
Of course I don't want to be the one to drive him to an early grave so I just try to ignore him, yet as long as we are still married in His eyes, I am not free to move forward completely.
He still denies the OW yet they are buying a house together...He still claims they are "just friends"...I think the lying hurts more then the affair itself. He seems to have lost all decency and humanity as a human being.
So now I am getting myself ready for the fight of my life...The fight to get my life back from him...I wish it was easier and I wish he wouldn't be such a tool about each and everything little thing that connects us...
It took me 14 months to agree to a D and go figure, the minute I did, he decided to turn the tables on me.
In other news...Today is little mans' 7th b-day and H actually remembered - Via TEXT message...Little guy doesn't even warrant a phone call on his b-day.
Just sad and utterly pathetic.
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
