You do have a choice in how you act, think, and feel. Yes, it hurts and you didn't want to be here. Stop playing the victim role and take charge of yourself. You are forgetting the other side of this - retain hope that you will prevail in the end.
Change your thinking you change your emotions, change your emotions you change your actions (TEA). Lot of negative emotions in your writing - anger, fear, frustration, rage, despair.
pray make a list of all you are grateful for exercise do something for someone else smile start conversations while standing in line
Learn what triggers your mind to start racing and stirring up the snakes. What's the cure for killing the snakes?
The rollercoaster goes both ways. This feeling is temporary.
What are your goals and plans for the day?
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
