I need help in the biggest way. I feel so helpless

[TimeHeals]

Through it all, I feel strong

Good. I am glad you aren't questioning your self-worth. I think it probably helped that this happened in the open in front of a witness.

I think part of the "fell down the rabbit hole" syndrome happens when all of this goes on in secrecy. If you are busy protecting your M and your family by keeping these secrets, it's easy to get sucked into the WAS drama and begin to question even sensible boundaries and values.

Been there myself. Regardless of how you two arrived where you are now, you apparently are handling yourself more appropriately NOW, and you are interested in being a healthy, happy person.

I am so sorry that this continues for you, but it will make you stronger.

PS. I don't know if I would seek answers in horoscopes. I know they can be a comfort in rough times, that they can seem to provide answers where answers aren't forthcoming, but there's a reason (no offense) they are labeled entertainment.