I need help in the biggest way. I feel so helpless

[timehealsall]

WOW.

last night was just over the top.

I got home from work last night. H had taken S5 with him to his game and MIL was with the girls and my SIL

MIL asks me "did H and you argue today?" I said no, not at all. he has actually been okay with me. She said, well, he had an attitude when he got home, he ran to the store with his friend and came back and was rushing to get to the game and got all pi$$y and started yelling at me when I asked him why he didn't go to the wake (a close friend of the family's father died and H and MIL agreed to alternate between the wakes (afternoon and night). H just went on and had a temper tantrum saying that everyone is in his business. to leave him alone and he huffed and puffed out of there and she was just appalled by how he yelled at her and carried himself.

OK. so I put the kids to bed. Told her to take my truck to go to the wake (she lives out of state and is staying with us).

She came back and we were chit chatting. She was starting to realize what I was going through. understand that oftentimes, I'd get the same verbal backlash from him after having done nothing.

He comes home with S5 and he bathes him and puts him to bed.

MIL goes over to him to confront him about his behavior and she and H get into it BIG TIME. Screaming, cursing. him telling her to get the eff out of there.. then saying that come the weekend me and the kids are leaving to go live at my mothers and he was going elsewhere.. that he was booking MIL's ticket to get out of there. then he goes off saying he needs to get away from all of us people.. that we're nuts and he needs to get away from us. just went on and on. It was like watching he and I fighting.. it was insane. she told him to get out of the house and he was packing his stuff and she was yelling at him and at one point was blocking the doorway and I was trying to get in the middle so nothing stupid would happen.. I got pushed aside. then she got pushed aside.. he called her a loser, a drunk.. you name it..

he then started texting me repeatedly that me and the kids were going to my mothers (he and my dad aren't speaking still; another unresolved issue for him).. I told him that I was staying and that we would go on just fine without him. I told him to leave and that I wasn't subjected the kids to his running. he then accused me and his mom of plotting this argument.. I just told him to go about his life. I will do what I have to do. We deserve better than this and I'll see to it that they get it. He text a few times asking me for clarification of what I meant by my text.. telling me to stop putting the kids into it.then goes into how he's happy it worked out this way.. that I'll be free and his mother will get rent and everyone will be happy.that he'll has to get his life back on track and make money and to take care of his kids.

his mother was in awe.. she finally saw her son for his true colors. she is devastated.. she told me that he kept telling her not to buy into my BS anytime she'd talk to him about me and him.. and that just the day before yesterday, he was telling her that I had to go (meaning leave). what a loser.

Through it all, I feel strong. I feel like I just want to throw him out fully and live my life. I hate this vicious cycle.