Completely Blindsided

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Moon, you're right. Crawling up in the ball DOES let some of that emotion up.... I actually do feel a little better now.

Also, that whole crying till you laugh at yourself and feel absolutely INSANE... yeah, felt that. Felt that big time.

Yeah, the Meet.com stuff was very sparse. There was a walking group that had met up once three years ago, and the rest looked to be "singles" groups... not really up for that yet.

I need to get a better net connection at home - at the moment most of it is on a prepaid mobile broadband dongle... and ocassional landline access. I'm looking into getting a wireless router, but I'm worried about burning big holes in my savings and having the car fund suffer for it.

Still, I've got the garage converted to have a few cheap full length mirrors and enough space to move in it, so I've got to start forcing myself to do some solo training, rather than thinking "solo time... time to collapse or sit in denial". PMA. Gotta work on it.

Geez, I reread my own posts and see the ridiculous level of mood swings in them. Not used to this level of crazy.