PEI's right, one foot in front of the other, one moment at a time.

If you want to ball up shut out the world and just cry, why not?
Often I waited to be alone in the house and just cried and cried which made me feel so much better... I didn't feel so choked up anymore at least for a little while. Gotta let it out somehow.
At times I was crying so hard like a child it made me smirk a bit (going crazy? hehe)

so I see that there wasn't much on meet.com in your area.

PEI's watching funny youtube video idea sounds good, some are so funny and silly.

What about Japanese lesson videos on youtube? Or learning dance moves on youtube?

Me:38 H:37, no kids
Married: 2.5 yrs, together 5yrs
Separated since Mar 2010