Yes - its more about observing myself than any real decision. Anything I "decide" to feel over the last X months hasn't stuck, one way or the other, but I suspect I'll find peace on it someday. And part of that will be finding peace with the shades of grey of it all, of letting it be what it is and being OK with that.
I'm starting to see that the daily interaction will definitely make this more difficult.
Nothing else to say today. Things are what they are.
