Husband left me 3 months pregnant...

[newmama]

I feel like he is a complete stranger. Dont even have the urge to be nice or polite. Dont love this monster. Dont respect this alien at all.

Been there, for sure!!! But it comes and goes. It might with you as well.

I give up. I no longer want to think of him. Told him that the past few weeks I feel like I am still sacrificing my happiness for his. Ok i was really happy the first week, sad the next and this week, I feel hatred and anger and resentment towards him.

You know something...it sounds almost like you have gone through a grief cycle. Grieving what you deserve and didn't get? Maybe you will truly detach for awhile now.

I am so angry... so hurt. I feel so disgusted with myself for having given him the chance. At the time, didnt feel like i was giving him a chance, i honestly thought i was a bit over the anger and doing whats best for the baby. I really dont care anymore... so my son will grow up and hate me for not letting his father in... big deal... dont we all hate our parents for something or other.

Babydoll, giving him the chance takes strength! At the same time, we don't have to take them back and if we do get rid of him it shows we are strong too! And your son will not hate you- he would respect you for trying and/or for deciding not to put up with the treatment.

Seriously, we have a win-win situation going on. The WASs of pregnant wives have a "draw"-lose. If they come back, they have to put up with explaining why they left and the long haul of earning trust back. But coming back shows strength. So I say it is a "draw" more than a "win." If they walk away, they totally lose everything. Including their self respect.

I realize you posted this while feeling low and maybe tomorrow you will have a different perspective. I have been there! But it will be interesting to see what your H does now that YOU have walked away! Check out 4luv's thread in the infidelity forum to see what her H had to say about her while he was gone.