DiamondGirl, Thanks so much for dropping by and posting, you gave me a lot to think about. It really helped me to "see" a bit outside my own thoughts, when I read your take on things. I didn't find it abrupt at all!
I guess I was dragged in again, believed things were changing. But they didn't; he was just "playing" me AGAIN to his advantage.
It's not just the fact that they unilaterally "break" the relationship when bomb hits, that hurts. Worse, I think is the abuse of trust with endless lying, emotional harm through blaming, and the simple fact that they just keep killing the relationship.
I so wish I wasn't in this sitch!
When you have kids, it's sooooo hard because you still have to deal with them and their mind games all the time.