Thank you for the response. It is all very stressful. Actually that doesn't begin to describe it. I've tried to spend time with everyone but it usually doesn't take my mind off of things. I know everyone is tired of hearing about it. I'm tired of living it. It's all I think about. It seems the only people that could help are the ones that aren't there (his family--except his sister, she's there) and so it's hard that the people in my life right now can do nothing to help the situation. I need to know why. It's eating me alive not knowing why this is happening. There is no OW. I realized today something his mother did. For Mother's Day, one of the things she gave me was a mug that read "Love is patient, love is kind, love never fails". My last talk with her was on Apr 20th when she told me to give up after finally talking to him the night before. I wonder if she called and told me that only to kiss up to him because of him being angry with her fir encouraging me to hold on to hope. I wonder if that mug was her way of secretly telling me that she didn't mean what she said that day and to encourage me to not give up. I know that I am starting to get depressed. Not that I don't gave reason but should I take an anti-depressant? I'm not one to let everything go to hell because I'm upset. I trudge through and do what I need. That's what I'm doing but it's VERY hard.
