I still haven't responded to her, and I plan to wait until tomorrow and just let her know what time the show starts.
Sandi, I made mention of being able to find someone else just as an indication that I know I will... I'm not looking for a relationship at all right now.
You mentioned a plan, and here is my plan.
To be awesome.
I was awesome during the camping trip. I will be awesome on Sunday, and then I will silently dissapear.
I will not contact her. I will not ask her out.
I want her to see what she is giving up. I am confident that I have made myself a much better person, and I did it the proper way... For ME.
I am going to quietly take myself out of the equation of her confused life, and if her and I are going to be together again, she has to come to me now. I'm done with the scraps and I'm done with the games.
I am well aware that the camping, and the thing Sunday could just be her feeling me out to see if I am still attached.
I can say that in the past, when her and I have done things together and gotten along as well as we have been lately I would almost instantly start a R talk and pressure her to reconcile. I have not even spoken to her since the camping, except to tell her that if she wants to see me again she needs to cut out the snottyness.
No R talk, no calling, no texting, nothing... It was like we had this awesome trip, and then I said "I'll see you later" and left and that was it.
That is DEFINITELY a big change from the way I HAD been acting during the separation.
I'm on my way out the door right now to have a few beers and play mario cart with a good friend. Thank god, cause I couldn't keep my mind off my wife today.
