Update- Met w/ W last night for some darts and wings...spent about 1.5 hours w/ her...there was some reminiscing of the R prior to M...
W made a comment that really struck a cord w/ me:
Since I left, my life really hasn't changed that much- it's just that I don't see you or speak to you...
That didn't hurt me like I thought it would...I wanted to reply to her that that is only b/c we are still M and there have been no real consequences yet.
I said nothing- and later it dawned on me what W wasn't considering: she drinks every night, goes out to clubs, believes she's single, entered into other R's, etc, etc.
Her life has changed a lot...
Anyway- when the conversation turned to R talk we decided to call it a night.
W asked "how can I want to go back to something where I felt so alone- hoping it can be different?"
I simply stated- look at your part in things and see what could have been changed...there are obv no promises or expectations...
Anyway- I'm a little sad; even though I feel like W is feeding me script to keep me in the shadows, I know that I'm not willing to wait things out anymore- I use the word "wait" even though that's not really what I'm doing...
There's a lot more than me involved in the sitch and things are going to be set in motion...
I am upset (frustrated) that W believes this can be prolonged further...sadly it cannot be...
I'm ready to start a new journey w/o ghosts from my past...
