Upside I don't know what to say other than I am sorry this isn't finishing the way you wanted. I can tell you though that your h is still in a crisis and until that crisis finishes he will not be coming home, so if you are done then you are done.
His loss. You have stood by your h and have given your marriage your all. It's a shame some of these WAS need to feel the loss before they can make a move home. So sorry, your h can't see that or can't move himself to want to change.
I think your h is in a deep depression and that is what keeps getting in the way. Until he deals with himself he will never be whole to be with you.
You might be done for now. Can you try not answering your h's calls, texts, emails and not be around for him before filing for D? He might just make that move in the near future that you are so looking for in him. Remember though he is not done with the crisis, so until he is done he really can't come home, if that makes any sense. It wouldn't work if he did come home too soon.
You are in a tough spot. Your h made so much progress too.
Hugs!
Me 50 H 42 S 22 S 9 D 7 M 12 T 17 H moved out 8/2006 H moved home 1/2007 for 3 weeks H moved home 5/2011 for good
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