Yes, I know I cannot shoulder all the blame. I am trying to not do that. I am also trying to understand that her catatonic state could be the blame game. She is acting like I am kicking her out of the M, instead of visa versa. That is becoming increasingly difficult to deal with. She even suggested off handily last night that I had ruined her life. Nope, not going to buy into that one.
I need to take a break from all this. I leave on Monday for 3 weeks of work. The break will do us all good. I hope she uses the time for self-reflection. If she uses all the time with the OM, then she is making a clear choice (if she has not already). I hope to be NC for that time. I will be interested to see if she even contacts me.
H 51, W 46 no kids T 22 years M 17 years ILBNILWY 2/10 1st D talk 6/10 partial recovery W files D 5/11 long distance separation 8/11 moving forward on D 10/11 legal separation complete 1/2012