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i think i've said a lot to identify who i am if my h was really lurking.


if he is then he should be learning a lot about your true intentions and some of the issues that are his responsiblity. it's all good in the end.

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do not mention my sitch in my blog.
just things i do on a daily basis.


so if you don't run into him and he's probably reading there then ......... confused

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love without fear.


don't make this a today thing, this is part of the DB education. are you familiar with all the Greek words and meanings for love? It all starts with loving yourself. Love kills the "snakes on a brain."

Know that you will be fine no matter this turns out. Ever seen "Band of Brothers"? Smiley Person used a quote from there that complements the Stockdale Paradox, it's when Capt Spiers is talking to Blythe about hiding in the foxhole. "The only hope you have is to accept the fact that you're already dead. The sooner you accept that, the sooner you'll be able to function as a soldier is supposed to function." Bottomline is accept the brutal reality, you are already divorced, how can he hurt you now? This is detachment from - the outcome, expectations, getting hurt, being rejected and making it work.

All's fair in love and war.

Get out of the foxhole.

Cheers


M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12
Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.