Spent a sad day tidying up the house from after the WAW's burglary.
Went out and bought some CD shelving units to store some stuff and gave the downstairs a good clean.
Really struggled to get out of bed this morning, so I pinched a few hours as Duvet time and hid from the world.
Close female friend came over today and we had a good heart to heart.
She basically told me what you guys and gals have been saying and to get my head down and move on.
More easily said than done.
Today I am coming to the conclusion that I have done all that I can, and that the big D may be the quickest way out of this mess.
Me and the WAW are still talking calmly to each other and when I said that I was going to have to buy new beds for the kids she offered to have the kids beds brought back over permanently. But this would have meant that the kids would be sleeping on an air bed at hers - which is not acceptable to me and unfair on the kids. So I said for her to keep the bunk beds.
But this is another measure of how she is doing anything I ask to help ease the situation she created.
She could just be acting nice to me until she side-swipes me with a petition for D, but I don't get that feeling. I think we are at the moment at the limit of what she has planned.
If I do decide to go down the D route I need to do it because I want to and that I am ready for it. I intend to give it a few weeks to allow my emotions to settle and for the fog to clear a little more before I decide. That is, if she hasn't done it before me.
I have the kids now from 7.15 till 7pm tomorrow.
Regards, Gyn.
Cause all of the stars, Have faded away, Just try not to worry, You'll see them someday. Take what you need, And be on your way and, Stop crying your heart out.
