You know, there is a part of my mind that wants to I think either definitively condemn or forgive her - and then that decision should inform how I behave towards her. Honestly the question isn't relevent now, and I want to get to a place where that's how I feel. I don't have to figure it out, I don't have to understand, I don't have to make and hold on to a judgment. Doesn't matter. I want to let it go. It takes too much energy.
