No, she's not really manipulating, and she's not really flip-flopping either. It's the same "I don't want to do this but I need to" stance she's had. She's already followed through, we're done. And she's already said she doesn't want to talk or see me, because she says it's harder to cope, although when I'm dropping off or picking up the boys sometimes it's inevitable.
To some degree I guess signing the papers has finally driven home the finality of this. She said that she really wanted this to work, really wanted to be married, to have a family, all that.
I don't know, it's not really affecting me that much at the moment, it's all stuff I've heard before. I don't believe she's turning around or anything. I don't feel anger right now, it's just really sad. And although I don't like to see her in such emotional pain, there is some solace in knowing that our marriage was significant to her. I think that there are a lot of things going on inside of her, many that have nothing to do with our relationship, and many that have colored our relationship, that have driven her to this point. And also some things that made me distant, that I've discussed before, that she believes will never change.
It is what it is now. Just another day. Nothing for it except to keep on keeping on.
