Right when you think you're getting somewhere, it comes out of nowhere (don't I know it!)...
Use this knowledge to fuel your need to be strong and work on YOU right now.
Stop thinking about the past 17-18 years. I know that it feels like a sham, a lie. But stop it. You will drive yourself nuts piecing things together. Trust me, I've done the same. I can't look at a wedding photo or any pictures of us together during the time of his A. it makes me seethe and it makes me bitter. I am not ready for that.
You need to stop beating yourself up and stop calling yourself stupid. You are NOT stupid. She should be lucky that you are the man that you are and that you're still wanting HER stupid a$$ after all she's put you through.
Like I always say karma is the biggest b!tch of them all, so let her do her job!
HUGS!
M: 32 H: 34 S:5 D: 3 D: 1 Together 11 years Married 7 Bomb: PA/EA 8/13/09 (for 1 year on and off) ILYBINILWY: 08/09
"The end of suffering happens with the end of wanting." -Laura Munson
