feel like giving up - pt 2

[luvless]

good wednesday morning,

I had a pretty good time in vegas despite how I've been feeling lately. It was nice to see the kids happy. I almost cancelled it because I just didn't feel up to it but seeing the kids have a good time made it worth it.

My best friend kept asking me if I was ok on monday so I guess I wasn't hiding my feelings too well that day. That night we saw the light show at the Bellagio - I'm sure you guys know. They were playing the song by Andrea Bocelli "time to say goodbye" well...it was a beautiful windy night and that song...even though its such a lovely song it's kinda sad. It took everything in my power to not burst into tears. That was awful. I didn't expect that at all but everything came flooding. All in all we had a good time and things went smoothly. I'm glad I went and my kids ran from their stress for a couple days.

Anyway...I am going to have a meeting with my L today about our finances. Things are not going well and it seems to be dragging on. My car payment is late and other things are piling up. I'm feeling very sad and stressed today - last night no sleep and a bad dream about X. Ugh.

PMA? nope...not today