Glad you're feeling better about things! Truly all you can do is try to stay positive. Keep living life -- taking care of you & the kids & keeping H in your life as much as he seems to want to be there. You can't fix him or his issues for him. You can just work on changing things that you may feel could be changed for the better and show H what he will be losing if he does end up leaving.

He's still living there w/ you, right?

Me: 38
H: 35
S4, S5, S10
Bomb 01/07
Wanted D - nothing would change his mind
Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb
Piecing 04/07
Deployed for a year 05/07
Still Piecing 2010
M 11 yrs 05/10