Partner left after 9 yrs - 18months on, reunited !

[AliSuddenly]

Hey Kat, yes I am having the dye injection next week, I'm dreading it in case I get an infection (our hospital here is in top 3 worst in England!). My progesterone has been fine so they havent said I need Clomid.

My hair has been falling out again. My iron/thyroid/prolactin are all ok now. I had another very bad dream about Helen last night. I've had some stinkers since we saw her those 2 times. I read that hair falls out a few months after a stressful event/time. BF reminded me last week how worried he was about me when we saw her as I was literally shaking like a leaf half the evening, had a dry mouth and felt very stressed, full on fight or flight mode, it was amazing the physical reaction I had to seeing her. I havent shook like that since the engines powered down banking hard over Las Vegas in 2000 (I thought the plane had stalled !!!). I wonder if this has caused my hair to fall out - the shock of being confronted with her.

I'm still processing seeing her those times - she has become this almost mythical, impressive, s&xy creature in my mind. He is done with her whereas I am rapidly putting her on a pedestal !!

I need to talk to him again about this, as he just doesnt understand my paranoia about her. He thinks we are getting M, so its all in the past and means nothing now. But I am also being very appreciative and 'loved up' - I spring through the door and jump into his arms - literally! and shower him with kisses. I tell him he looks sexy/handsome. He told me he LOVES that I am like this with him. Loves it. And so he reciprocates.