reconciliation after divorce?

[any chance?]

Thanks, PG, but I fear the downhill race continues.

I need help with this one, big time.......

So, as I said the MC brought out the demons, and W is obsessing over details from past mistakes. I have been open and honest. I got a text from her tonight that had me concerned about her welfare, so I went to her apt. to check on her.

She repeated again that I would be fine, that I would move on. That I should not be dragged down by her illness/depression. I told her I would be there for her, as I always have been. She asked when I lost interest in her sexually, and I told her that we both got to point of not knowing if the other wanted us, as we both felt unwanted and rejected sexually. Admitted that was a huge mistake on both our parts, and that if we were as aware of relationship issues then as we are now, that would never have happened (the warning flags would have gone off). I never really did lose interest in her sexually. I just didn't know if she wanted me. What a sad thing.

She is very focused on the trust issue, and maintains she is not sure she can believe anything I say. Very sad given our very strong relationship in the past. Restoring that trust takes time and patience, and I am not sure I will be given a chance.

I left at her request. She is a catatonic mess, not really functioning day to day. I am very worried about her.

I leave in 5 days for three weeks, and am going to try NC during that time. The Vets give me 2x4's for the path I am on, but I really do not know what to do.

PG, you are right, I am totally and completely physically and emotionally exhausted. Wrung out. Not much left. But I see her crumbling before my eyes. Is it even possible that this is all a blame game for her to justify leaving me?