Then why is she obsessing over my past mistakes, which she has known about for a while now? ... I am quite suspicious she is making a huge issue of it to justify her actions with EA/PA and wanting the D.
I think you asked and answered your own question!
Originally Posted By: any chance?
I know I am not supposed to infer what she is feeling, but how do I respond to these gut-wrenching emails? Ignore them?
AC, it sounds as though you're wrung out, emotionally and physically. If I were you I'd be exhausted from all the stress and heartache. Do you think you might be able to just turn the computer or blackberry off (whatever you're receiving these emails on!?) for a day so you can regroup and get some rest? Or at least just not read anything from her for a while? I think you might benefit from a bit of distance right now. I fear returning any of her emails right now is just perpetuating a negative, unproductive (and unhealthy!) pattern.
I cannot complain for not receiving from others, that which I've never asked them for.
