You wouldn't have even had to open your mouth, you could have sat there like a statue. The guilt is in your H. He will feel it just by looking at you. Depression and guilt makes them look like they do.
After the feel good hormones wear off, I don't think it will be very pretty with your H and ow. She's left her children and H. Between the two of them the guilt will be so thick you could cut it with a knife. The stress and guilt felt by both of them doesn't bode well for a long term R.
Go to the Dude Ranch and have the time of your life with your D. You deserve it. It will be interesting to hear how many times your H texts you on this trip.
