To be honest I kinda reached the same conclusion myself.
In terms of growing a spine, I have. I am v.confident in what I want, but I am very aware that my children are still suffering.
This is where my pain is (the children), there is very little pain right now for losing my wife, I can sit in the room with her now and feel detached. shes sees it too.
But one question, If she repeats the experience and does come back to me in the same way, what then?
Keep walking... until when?
Start talking....(and now Im back on the string?)
So thats a bit confusing...how do you know when shes genuine and the times right for talking...after all shes lied about everything else.
MT
H:38 W:35 D:11 D: 8 Married: 13Yrs ILYBNILWY: 15/11/09 PA discovered and shock and awed 17-12-09
Ok so nothing has really changed, shes in my house..we plan to sell.
I am living away..and well had few dates with a lovely girl and we get on well.
Still looking good, feeling good and have no intention of going back. My children, I see every week, talk every day..its not the same and it upsets me. I miss them dearly.
I know they miss me too.
Thats my update anyway..
MT21
H:38 W:35 D:11 D: 8 Married: 13Yrs ILYBNILWY: 15/11/09 PA discovered and shock and awed 17-12-09