Yeah, I did have an eviction notice. I think I have a blank copy saved somewhere.
My heart and my head are working against each other. I know I can't do this anymore. I know I deserve so much more, so much better. I know he won't change. I know if he truly loved me that he would make the effort and show it. Somehow, someway.
But I can't help but wish. Wish he would change. Wish this, something, anything, would make a difference. Wish that the last 4 1/2 years weren't a waste. Wish I didn't waste all that love, time, energy, emotion, money....
Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.
