Pam, Shiny and Opt. Thanks for dropping by last night. Always nice to know you're there at the ready.
Well H got home five minutes after I finished posting. He was gone exactly two hours.
I put on my smiley face and he came over and kissed me on the neck and said "What's up?". "What do you mean what's up?" "You had a look on your face." "That was a smile." "Yea, but you had a look on your face when I came in."
Oops.
He said all that in a perfectly happy tone while hugging and kissing me.
Okay so now I'm really curious.
So I says...Did you go to the other house, (a relatively safe question now) hoping to get him to open up about his whereabouts. He answered "no". Tap, tap...sigh. He then explained that he went to a few different stores looking for a bike for his nephew and then stopped off at a buddies house and had a beer with him.
Okay, maybe he did, maybe he didn't.
Then he tells me about this massive dog his friend has and shows me the paw prints said massive doggy left on his jeans. Okay, he's probably telling me the truth. I'll give him the benefit...
Cut to the evening. We're watching a documentary about John Lennon, his life and his music.
I can't remember exactly which song it was, but it was a love song and I hear my H singing along with it. I'm watching the television screen throughout.
After the song is over, I hear my H saying "I was singing that to you".
Slowly I swivel my head around.
"I was singing that to you AND trying to get your attention".
Okay, who is this guy? This has got to be a double, a pod person. My H doesn't do this sort of thing.
I did a big "ahhh, I'm sorry I missed it...that's really nice".
Oh but it gets better....
So out of the corner of my eye, I'm watching for my H to start singing to me again. I'm NOT missing out again. No way!
Then the song "Jealous Guy" starts up. You guessed it, H starts singing to me.
To refresh the memory of those, (who like me) have lost some of the lyrics in the dark void of years long past...
I was dreaming of the past And my heart was beating fast I began to lose control I began to lose control
I didn't mean to hurt you I'm sorry that I made you cry Oh no, I didn't want to hurt you I'm just a jealous guy
I was feeling insecure You might not love me anymore I was shivering inside I was shivering inside
I didn't mean to hurt you I'm sorry that I made you cry Oh no, I didn't want to hurt you I'm just a jealous guy
I didn't mean to hurt you I'm sorry that I made you cry Oh no, I didn't want to hurt you I'm just a jealous guy
I was trying to catch your eyes Thought that you was trying to hide I was swallowing my pain I was swallowing my pain
I didn't mean to hurt you I'm sorry that I made you cry Oh no, I didn't want to hurt you I'm just a jealous guy, watch out I'm just a jealous guy, look out babe I'm just a jealous guy
He locked his eyes on mine with an expression of deep sincerity and affection whenever the phrases I didn't mean to hurt you I'm sorry that I made you cry Oh no, I didn't want to hurt you came up.
I smiled sweetly at him thinking "Gosh, it's almost as if he means what he is singing" and as the song ended, I turned my head back toward the screen. Then I hear my H say, "And I mean it".
I look back at him. "Really?" H shakes his head and says "yes". "You mean what you were singing just now?" I squeaked. With eyes soft and peaceful, he replies "Yes, I really mean it".
I could only smile "thank you" at him as I was applying a strangle-hold around my eyes to keep a bunch of sappy tears from leaking out.
This is the first truly unselfish, love-filled, "I'm not just saying this to shut you up" kind of apology I have received from him.
No need to spell out to you, my bb buddies, just how much I've longed for - NEEDED - to hear those words.
I never imagined that he would sing them to me though.
Thank you John Lennon. You just keep bringing peace into the world.
